It's a bit of an oxymoron to be so tired and worn down but not able to sleep, right? The last week and a half, I feel fatigued all day which doesn't help with my already lacking motivation and dragging productivity. I get home and feel like a zombie checking email and websites and blogs. Too tired to do my usual nighttime routine and just do the quick version. Once I hop into bed and get comfortable though, wide awake.
My mind isn't racing. I'm relaxed. I'm freaking tired as all get out (does anyone else say that? The Boy makes fun of me for it). Why can't I fall asleep? I eventually drift off after quite a while, but end up waking back up for no reason. Not too hot, not too cold, not uncomfortable and no noises disturbing me. I just wake up. Having a drink before bed doesn't help. Reading doesn't help. Eating. Not eating. I can't seem to beat it. The only time I sleep really really well is the last few hours before I have to go to work. 4-8am is when I've been getting my best sleep.
I really wish I could blame the lack of energy on something awesome like being pregnant or something. Alas, it's just good ol' insomnia. It creeps around and stays for a few weeks every now and then throughout the year. I could probably get a script for some sleep aids from my Dr, but I really don't like taking meds unless absolutely necessary. Or at least absolutely necessary to make the baby that I really want (which is hopefully making its way down my tubes and prepping itself for burrowing into my uterus here in the next week or so!).
Regardless of why the lack of sleep, I have not been doing my appropriate amount of commenting each day. I feel really guilty about it. I just can't bring myself though to leave a comment on someone's blog just to leave a comment. I have to have something to add or at least contribute in some way. Lately, I'm just glad I can string together a few sentences periodically throughout the day that sound coherent and make at least some sense to the person with which I'm speaking.
Please forgive me my ICLW trespasses. I'll try to make up for it next month. I should be post-insomnia zombified by then. In the meantime, I'd really like to know what all your nighttime/sleep rituals are!
Insomnia is awful - try Circle and Bloom meditations for IF (if you're into that sort of thing)... her sessions have helped me to get to sleep and deal with my IF anxiety at the same time. Look after yourself xoxo
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ReplyDeleteOh! I'm experiencing the same thing with ICLW this month. So sad. I promise to make it up next time around, too.
ReplyDeleteBut you came to my blog, so that's something! :) Also, I think "as all get out" is a southern thing! I can hear my southern friends saying it right now.
As for the sleeplessness, I experience that often as well. I've found this awesome herb complex (which, unfortunately, I wouldn't take if if you think you're pregnant), but it's called a Night's Rest by Source Naturals. I take half of one (even though the dose is 1-2) and I'm knocked out.
Ugh, not being able to sleep is one of the worst things in the world. I hope you get some proper rest soon!
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ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you are not sleeping. I am a fellow insomnia sufferer, so I can commiserate! I have been having real trouble the past week or so and I feel like a zombie at work.
I have been using some herbal sleeping tablets which are ok..but don't work all the time...
I definitely recommend Circle+Bloom or even white noise. I have an app on my iphone that plays different sounds - "Rain on a Tarp" gets me to sleep every time... Insomnia is the worst!
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